NOT HOLDING MY BREATH

Time waits for no one. How many times have I heard that adage? Life continues after losses of loved ones, major moves, and all sorts of crises. I know this and yet I continually wait for just the "right time".....to sew new curtains, organize the cupboards and pantry, finish sorting through my mom's possessions, and many other things I need to do, "....when there's more time".  We've had many changes in our lives recently and no matter how much we tell ourselves we're dealing with things just fine, I often have some doubts. I don't think I'm depressed now - just unmotivated. Or is that the same thing?

I have so much fabric and yarn I could probably open a small shop, at least that's what Glenn tells me. I also have plenty of patterns and idea books, even after giving some away when we moved here. So what's been keeping me from working on projects? It's simple. I've lacked goals.  For over 30 years I participated in craft shows and was always working on items to sell or donate. Since my craft show days seemed to be over, there was no reason to search for new ideas or pull out old patterns and revive them. How sad and disappointing is that? Since I'm the one who decided those days were over, I can un-decide as well. 

 

My first un-decision is to use some of my sewing and crafting supplies THIS YEAR or let most of them go. I've been on the fence about this for a long time and it's time to do something. My first venture will be a small home craft show to be held here on October 12th. A dear friend helped me set a date. I have some projects finished and some nearly finished. Weather permitting, I'll set up on my deck outside the sunroom. Plan B - I'll use the sunroom as a venue.

 

I'm starting to get excited about this and have realized there were a lot of things keeping me from this goal and some were out of my control. We were in the process of moving for about 2 years, after losing a house we thought we'd bought. It was all due to the seller's problems with his lender. It took us about 9 months (and one expensive lawyer) to get past that, then we found this house and worked on it for about 3 months before moving into it. Within a few months of moving in here, my mom fell in her home (2 hours away), was hospitalized twice, went to rehab, then was moved down here at my request, so I could be the responsible person while she was in an assisted living facility. That was a roller coaster ride. There was one point in time when my mom and Glenn's dad suffered strokes on the very same day. He tended to his dad's needs while I looked after Mom's. After a long series of illnesses, his dad passed in May of 2012, and Mom passed in May of this year. We had our own house to clear out and sell, his dad's house, and my mom's house. So we've been very busy. 

 

It's good to have a little bit of smoother sailing right now, but that doesn't mean there aren't things still needing our attention around here. It's rather that life is less intense now and that feels good. My thoughts about being depressed or lazy have subsided. I've just been swamped with other things. I know my interests still lie in crafting and sewing. I'll share home show plans as they come along. It's still a good life.

IF YOU SEW, THAT'S KIND OF THE SAME THING, RIGHT?

    

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