January was a full-of-good-intentions month. I didn't make any resolutions for the new year but vowed to continue crafting ornaments every month as I did last year. I was very enthused about making them, so when the craft shows didn't materialize, I chose to fill my Christmas tree with my own handmade offerings.
Unfortunately, this year's enthusiasm hasn't materialized either. I didn't put away my holiday decorations until mid-January, but was that an excuse for not starting to make ornaments? Probably not, but it's the only excuse I can think of right now that doesn't contain the word "lazy".
Last week my good friend, Deanna, challenged me to cut out 6 ornaments. Surely I could manage to do that - and I did. Actually, I cut out 12 and thought I was on my way. Those 12 ornaments sat on my sewing table for a whole week, until I finally began to sew them today. I now have my ornaments sewn, but not stuffed or accessorized. I simply ran out of steam.
Here's what I decided:
1) The goal of making 12 ornaments each month is self-imposed. No one is giving me a deadline and there are no penalties for noncompliance.
2) If I choose to not make ANY ornaments at all this year, that's fine.
3) Should I choose to make ornaments, there is no rule stating I have to make some every month.
All these things should have been obvious to me from the beginning, but they weren't. I was being hard on myself and feeling as if I'd failed. In reality, I haven't failed at anything (yet). I've simply chosen to adjust my goal - that's all.